Hey...

I'm sad...very sad at this exact moment...and nobody knows it but me. But...I have a really funny quote...

"I haven't lost my mind, it's backed up on a disk somewhere." Ain't that the truth!

See ya~

So, right now, I really hate my job, but it's paying the bills. I set in a cubicle for 8 hours a day...anyone who knows me, knows that is NOT something that is good for me.  I was used to standing for my whole shift, face to face with customers, helping women be fashionable. Now I call and get people's medical histories over the phone.  Woo-hoo. Don't get me wrong, it pays $10.45/hr, but it still suck. And, since I'm only a temp employee, most of the benefits don't apply till I'm perm.  So, that sucks. I'm really hoping I can get on-board with Lane Bryant again. I really miss it!

Matt and I are doing awesome, we don't get to see each other enough, but what's new?  This weekend's gonna suck cause we won't be able to spend much time together!  But, we'll find a way, we always do!

BTW, does anyone know where I can find a sexy black highheel/platform, without a freaking pointy toe? I need it soon, like in the next couple of weeks, and it needs to be really cheep!  So, any suggestions let me know!

Hope everyone is doing well...ttyl!

                             Jordan

I've decided I'm having a bad go of things right now. I don't like my job...it's alright, I get to talk to people all day on the phone. But, I also sit on my butt all day, and just so everyone if aware...I DO NOT like that.  I used to be standing at my job for eight hours at a time!  And from where I look at it, there is not a whole lot of room to move up.  I feel trapped.

And, I'm trying to pay my bills as fast as I possibly can, everything is so overdue from me being out of work. I hardly spend any money doing anything, and to make matters worse...I can't remember the last time I was shopping and actually bought something.  I know that's going to make me sound like a spoiled princess, but I am, and for the most part up until a few months ago, I did a pretty good job of spoiling myself.  But now...

Matt and I are doing good, except that my hours suck, so we hardly get to see each other...so, that's great .  We are coming up on one year in October...isn't that awesome!!  I love you babydoll!

So, not much elso to say, I'm trying to keep it together as much as possible, but sometimes I feel really helpless, and hopeless.

There are times, all the time, when I wonder how I've made it so long without my Daddy.  Sometimes I miss him so much that I wish I could die just to talk to him...now don't trip and think I'm suicidal, if any of you have lost someone you were that close to, I think you'd understand.  Suicide is an action not possible from me.  I just really miss him and wish he was available for a short conversation. 

Well anyways, enough of my sad song...I'm gonna go get ready for work...ya hoo...lol! Take care everyone! Leave me comments!

I don't have much time to post, gotta run errands before work.  I felt so bad yesterday.  Matt had a bad day and I couldn't really be there like I wanted to be.  It sucked.  It seems like there is so much keeping us apart right now!  URGHHH!!!  There's stuff that can't be helped, and stuff that can be, just not by us....so it sucks!  Weekends baby!  And even those are hard because everyone wants to hang out on the weekends now that I have them off.  So, anyways...Matt, I love you...we've made it 10 months without ANYONE breaking us down.  If we can make it 284 hrs...I can change my schedule, and actually get to see you during the week sometime!

Been under the weather this week, almost went to the ER twice, let me tell you how much fun that was!  But, I think I might be getting over it now!

Ok, everyone else, I love ya....hope I get to actually talk and see some of you soon! Peace out!